Painting toenails has been my solution for dealing with a variety of painful experiences. I first discovered it after I'd painted my toenails a Cadbury purple colour the day before getting dumped by a girlfriend.
The next day I looked at my feet, felt a surge of emotional anguish and decided that the purple on my nails would serve as a barometer for my feelings of hurt. As the months went by and the nail polish grew out, my feelings diminished.
Then one day about six months later, I looked at my feet and saw there was little purple left and judged this still reflected my feelings. Soon after I felt I was beyond feeling an emotional reaction when I saw my ex.
The opposite of love isn't hate, it's apathy.
